How can someone I never knew be such a huge part of my life?
Love is never planned and if it, it cannot be love. This is what happened when I first started talking to Ashton. No! It was not the love at first tweet, but the attraction our conversations and Google searching generated caught me off guard. I never thought it would go that long. Considering it as a crush was my mistake coz’ I fell in love. To be honest I fell in love with his voice. It was like a drug for my soul. Until that voice message, it was a mere “not so serious” types. It had to be a voice of someone who sings, not professionally but for hobby and within next few weeks i made sure all my best girlfriends had those sound clips on their device “in their playlist”,and on the top. I made it compulsory for them to listen.It was kinda “Bitch Mode Activated” for them. But the love they had for me, they accepted my threats without any counter-threats.
You cannot expect a married girl to fall in love.
Yes!! That’s me Veronica, 26, married, and in love again with someone living across the three oceans. We were technologically inseparable, another added advantage of digital age but it not a piece of cake to trust someone whose like thousands of miles away and totally opposite of you. But I did. Our relationship was always a few months on a few months off. He had his life. I had mine.
Some experts say communicating online before meeting IRL (that’s In Real Life) can actually foster strong relationships by helping those with similar interests come together over great distances. Potential lovers overlook superficial turnoffs, and people open up to each faster and more deeply.
So coming back to Ashton, we met through a social platform and within a few hours we were exchanging emails and over the next few days I discovered I was falling for this kind, funny and intelligent man. He’s really kind and sweet and funny, but he lives in the USA and I’m all the way over the pond, otherwise I would’ve arranged a meeting and probably got abducted. He was a kind of guy who could put my insecurities to deep sleep. He had the capability to dive into my eyes and taste all my fears.
But it wasn’t till today that I met him
Initially, I WAS SCARED TO MEET HIM IN PERSON
I parked my bike at the corner of the street and hopped off it, stood there, watching the masses of people ahead of me bustling like swarm of bees. I felt vulnerable like a little puppy out of a shelter, well groomed and standing in a strange street to stand face to face with FAITH that I was waiting for since so long. I took few long breaths and looked at my watch and there I saw him standing on the other side.
My heart did the oh-so-not-familiar-somersaults with the sudden flight of butterflies. My stomach felt like a freaking plane runway
He had not seen me yet or even he did I was sure he failed to recognize, though he never admits. “Now was the time to play some game” was the thought in my evil mind.
I saw him swapping screens on his phone and then suddenly there was buzz on my phone. It was a text from Ashton
“Where are you? I have reached”
“Near the fountain, opposite the candy vendor” I replied. There were numerous candy vendors there and I had seen them all circling the fountain.
“What are you wearing” he texted back
“Clothes” was my answer
I was trying to play a bitch and get on his nerves. The rich aroma of popcorns was entering my nostrils. There weren’t many people around and so it wasn’t difficult to search for one girl. I waited at the same spot till he found me out.
The moment our eyes met, I forgot what it was like to breathe. In fact, I forgot my own damn name. His eyes did not leave me for a second and I think I never saw him blink. I took a step forward like a sleepwalker. And the next moment it was like a moth attracted to a flame. I did expect him to be with a fork and a knife waiting to come and eat me up alive.
I took my chances as I melted into his arms, resting my head against his hard chest. I closed my eyes, savoring the moment. His hand caressed my back softly before he hugged me back. His arms felt so strong around me, one harsh squeeze and I’d crumble.
“The most beautiful moments always seemed to accelerate and slip beyond one’s grasp just when you want to hold onto them for as long as possible.”