It’s not that I didn’t get the sleep and I am tired, it’s the other way round. My heart is actually tired of beating, my lungs refuse to breathe, and the whole essence of my existence is tiring. I want sleep, a kind where I have to never wake up again.
I am tired of acting like everything is ok and I am tired of people thinking that I have a wonderful family life. I wanna get rid of this shell, of a fake smile, and I am tired that nobody noticed.
And the truth is that I feel worthless……..
I am tired holding on to things that are no more in my control and I am tired of trying to control what cannot be controlled.
I am not upset or hurt or for that instance angry anymore…I am just tired….
Often, it’s the deepest pain that empowers you to grow into your highest self, and I am tired of hiding the mess that I am in.
I am on the verge of nervous breakdown……
Love doesn’t hurt, loving the wrong person hurts, and I am tired being the better person. One day I will be the bitch they claim I am!
At times I feel I am waiting for something that isn’t going to happen, but I will wait, till the end ‘coz I cannot love anymore, I gave you all the love I had left in me, I have nothing more for anyone.
“Please don’t forget me and all the things we did. I love you.. I love you so much.”