It’s not that I didn’t get the sleep and I am tired, it’s the other way round. My heart is actually tired of beating, my lungs refuse to breathe, and the whole essence of my existence is tiring. I want sleep, a kind where I have to never wake up again.
I am tired of acting like everything is ok and I am tired of people thinking that I have a wonderful family life. I wanna get rid of this shell, of a fake smile, and I am tired that nobody noticed.
And the truth is that I feel worthless……..
I am tired holding on to things that are no more in my control and I am tired of trying to control what cannot be controlled.
I am not upset or hurt or for that instance angry anymore…I am just tired….
Often, it’s the deepest pain that empowers you to grow into your highest self, and I am tired of hiding the mess that I am in.
I am on the verge of nervous breakdown……
Love doesn’t hurt, loving the wrong person hurts, and I am tired being the better person. One day I will be the bitch they claim I am!
At times I feel I am waiting for something that isn’t going to happen, but I will wait, till the end ‘coz I cannot love anymore, I gave you all the love I had left in me, I have nothing more for anyone.
“Please don’t forget me and all the things we did. I love you.. I love you so much.”
MEMORIES OF VERONICA 
Powerful stuff, but the fact you’ve written it proves you could never be the b**** they say.
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Thanks Richard and i dont care what anyone says anymore
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That’s good 🙂
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As you shouldn’t. Be who you are, damn the haters, so to speak. I’m tired too, but someday you’ll gather strength and you won’t be anymore. Im itself am going through a very tiring abd trying time with the end of my marriage, it’s brutal stuff. Good or bad, nothing stays the same forever, abd with change comes new energy. Great piece, have a good evening!
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Thank you so much!! I wish happiness for you 🙂
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Ditto!;)
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Hang in there! I think not pretending that you aren’t hurt is a huge start to healing! Maybe put some distance if you can and get some rest if you can! Sometimes getting away helps you to see things more clearly! Do something nice for yourself! I hope things get better for you!
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Thanx 🙂
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The very ones that you feel you have to pretend around, they’re pretending more than you. People like to hide behind a perception, and then throw stones or take advantage of others. They do this because of their own insecurities. I say let them kick rocks.
Think of paradise, regardless what type interpretation of paradise is for you. Sit for a while and imagine it until it makes you smile.
Now, keep that thought in your head and leave it there. Whenever you need that image once more, bring it back to the surface. As long as you have paradise in your head, regardless what is taking place externally, in your mind, there is always paradise.
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That is worth a try 🙂 Thanks for the kind words
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